i watched finding forrester yesterday, its hard to imagine that someone so strong hearted, loyal, intelligent, sensitive etc could exist, coming from a background as harsh as his. i want to d/l the song that played at the end, it is absolutely beautiful. but i couldnt see who the artiste of this version of the song was, cos the resolution of the soundtrack list at the end was so pathetic! TCS, buy better visual quality shows to screen pls! and anyway, i support their new movie premieres. thank you. pls make up for taking channel i's movies away from me.
i'm working now, at american express. i think right now i'm just doing it to keep myself busy for a while, till i really figure out what i want. i expect i'll do this job for about a month, possibly longer. its good money i guess, but if i find something more exciting i'll go for it.
frankly i dont see the point of working an admin job for like 6 months etc. i mean, HI, isnt this six months about doing your thing, trying out the undiscovered, making mistakes, just, living the life. tell me if i'm living in some warped dream. but i think this might work out, once i get the cash to fund my adrenaline inducing projects, life might actually become more of an adventure at this point in time.
i dont get why my mom thinks that i should stick w the job, and like pull through and complete the 3 months. firstly its not like i want to quit, i'm perfectly happy working it for 1 month. but..3 months? i mean, i understand that i have to learn that some things arent gonna be exciting all the way, and that routine is an inevitable part of your life, but.. i just cannot possibly conceive what it will be like if today i commit myself to the insane possibility of working an admin job for a whole 3 months. its a very large commitment, i dont think i can do it.
maybe that's a whole new issue, my problem about commitment.
anyway, i'm only 18. money isnt everything to me. its more about, doing something i want, but actually being able to provide it myself, and not have to feel so conscious about how much money its going to cost my parents. at this point in time, i dont want to find a job to be rich and earn lots of money. what's the point? if i earn 1000 plus from this job in one month, and that's enough to provide for another month or two months of living the life i believe i want for now, then, so be it. why work your ass off for something you dont need at this point in time?
call me young, stupid, ungrateful. but. seriously. if i earn money to pay for..cable tv for the house, a new zealand backpacking trip, and that's my aim, then just fulfilling it is enough. isnt it? do i need backup cash at this point of time?
anyway. i think i've had enough of blogging here. its time i start something else, a bit more personal, then maybe, just maybe i'll be more true to myself.
this used to serve me well..but it's been dying out. dont feel urges to update much. and besides, born_geniuse just doesnt fit anymore. its more of what i'd prefer to refer to as, childish egoistic humour. damn, but its hard to change my born_geniuse email add too. that'll just have to stick w me for a while longer i guess. oh well.
farewell.
:D
to a great upcoming few months. let's go baby.